Message from Pat P

Jul 31st, 2015

Category: CrossFit

Message from Pat P

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Hey gang, want to share some words from Pat P with everyone after he saw the post yesterday.  Also, some of you have asked for the donation site, here it is.

From Pat P…..

I just popped onto Facebook and scrolled through caught the southie blog post and of course noticed the “pr for pat” workout is on the docket for tomorrow.

I read through the little write up on the blog and watched the video. It took me right back to that day. A day that I was just so so overwhelmed with positive vibes and love and support, from all my southie fam, and extended CrossFit fam all around the state and region and some other parts of the country.

It was a day where I saw some really cool things happen, talked (as best I could) to a lot of people, made some new friends and really just had a great hopeful uplifting day.

The coming days and weeks and months were tough, I started my chemo and radiation shortly after that day and it was a grinding process. Radiation everyday for 6 weeks topped off with huge doses of chemo (up to 5 hours at a time) every other week.

I was beyond optimistic, I was 100% certain that I would be overcoming this illness and my story would be one of inspiration, and hope. A story that people could look back on and draw encouragement from, and something that I would look back on and say something about what doesn’t kill me etc etc.

I was prepared to document my recovery and my progress as I got back into shape, got my life back together and began a new chapter with a new title to my name “Pat Padgett: brother, son, friend….. Cancer survivor”

However life has a way of throwing everyone’s plans out the window. So things haven’t exactly gone the way I was expecting them to. My very first MRI post surgery and post treatment showed an abnormality. A few weeks later another more conclusive MRI showed what everyone feared. My cancer had come back, almost immediately once treatment ended it came back and it was making it very obvious that it wouldn’t be going away no matter how many kitchen sinks we threw at it.

So my story won’t end the way I had hoped, and it will be a shorter book with less chapters than I planned on.

I’m still trying my best to live my life to the fullest. If you’re friends with me on fb you know I’ve been traveling a lot. Some big trips with huge groups of family and friends, some trips with small intimate groups, and everything in between. I’ve also been trying to organize as many social gatherings as possible to spend time with as many of my friends as often as possible. As I recently said and was quoted the only things in life that matter are friends, family, experiences, and love.

Yesterday was my birthday, and I’ll admit it was a pretty tough day. Aside from my general daily challenges and struggles, my mental battle, my hugely alien looking swollen face, and the constant relentless pain, this was my birthday. It’s a very strange and hollow and haunting feeling to know almost for a fact that, that will be the last birthday I ever see alive. I don’t say this to be dramatic or draw sympathy, I’m only trying to give an honest update and a glimpse into my day to day.

So things for me are tough, really tough, and they get worse almost daily, certainly weekly. There is no relief in sight. There’s no pot of gold at the end of my rainbow. But I still LOVE my friends, I still LOVE my family I’m so thankful for the life I have enjoyed, the experiences I’ve had, the people I’ve shared my life with, I still find reasons to smile everyday even if I force it (I might cry almost everyday too but I smile damnnit!)

I can’t say this is how I pictured things turning out for me, but this is the hand I’ve been dealt and I do my best to deal with it and make the most of things everyday.

I haven’t been by southie in a while, truth be told I haven’t even worked out in about a month. I miss the gym, I miss my friends, I miss a lot of things, but I recently ordered some weight and a barbell for my moms house where I’m living now. I’m going to set it up in the back yard and hopefully find some motivation to at least lift heavy errrrrrrrryday.

I hope to make a trip over to cf southie sooner than later to check in and see some friendly faces, maybe even break a sweat.

Thank you to everyone for your support no matter how you show it. Even if you just try really hard in the workout, that is support all day.

Thank you to southie and of course special thanks to the coaches who I consider friends as well as my other good friends from the box.

The specialist thanks to goose and ames. Some of my best friends on earth. Two people who have helped shape the person I am and have become. I wouldn’t be who I am without you guys and I couldn’t have done all this without you and the cf community.

So do me the honor of living your life like you really mean it. Go out and conquer your goals, do things that you’re a little scared of, make awesome memories that give you cool stories to tell, and love, love as much as possible, freely and genuinely. Love people, love activities, love scenes and ideas, and material things, and songs, and just love as much as you can. Enjoy your life you only get one, and value your time, you never know how much of it you really have.

Thank you everyone, and thanks for reading this.

Pat p

Strength
Front Squat
3-3-3-3-3

WOD
3 Rounds
21 Deadlifts (135,95)
9 Overhead Squats

Level 2- 115,75
Level 1- 95,45

Cooldown/Cashout
1000m Run
50 Sit-ups

DISCUSSION 9 Comments

  1. Shelbi 08/07/2015 at 11:06 am

    Email address?

  2. Ryan Gould 08/01/2015 at 12:29 pm

    Keep up the positive outlook Pat. Your words are beyond inspiration, even to those who have never met you.

    FS: 200×3
    WOD: 8:43 L1.5 (started out at #115, then went down to 95# during the middle of the 2nd round)

  3. Rmatta 07/31/2015 at 6:06 pm

    Pat, I am a good friend of Brian’s and Greg Baye’s. My family and I have been inspired by your story and keeping you in our prayers. We just wanted to wish you the best of luck and let you know that your story has reached beyond the close communities you are a part of and to the larger communities who may struggle with similar challenges personally or in their families. Thank you for being so transparent and giving us all a glimpse into the social emotional side of this fight. You wouldn’t believe the amount of people who know you through mutual friends and are praying for you during this time of need. If there is ever anything that we can do to support you during this time we are here and ready.

  4. Eric M Bachman 07/31/2015 at 4:30 pm

    Pat’s message above is incredibly moving. Thank you for sharing your experience.

    This workout was a lot of fun. 6:20 Rx. Although my back is killing me and I suspect my form must have broken down during the DLs.

  5. chrisgosler 07/31/2015 at 1:48 pm

    The donation site is down.
    Here is Pat’s home address…
    ​44 Foxhill Rd
    Ludlow, Ma 01056

  6. D Lucia 07/31/2015 at 2:16 am

    Very well written under unfortunate circumstances. I love the positive attitude and spirits and will make it a point to keep your words in mind when I have tough moments. All the respect and admiration in the world bro.

  7. Mother Donna 07/31/2015 at 1:51 am

    I love you Pat my son. You are such an inspiration and I just can’t even begin to imagine what you are going through physically and emotionally. Your words are so powerful and I hope I can live up to them by living each day with as much love as you have for your family and friends. You are wise beyond your years and forever in my heart. I’ve known you since you were in preschool with Matt and watched you grow into the incredible man you are today. Please know I’m here always and I love you.

  8. Dale 07/31/2015 at 1:21 am

    Love you Pat. You are amazing and a genuine inspiration to me!

  9. anonymous 07/31/2015 at 1:00 am

    I don’t know you personally but have been following your journey through friends of friends. I can tell by their words about you and the photos you all share, love and passion that you all have for each other and for this life in general. You are truly an inspiration to everyone in how to live your life to the fullest, and how to share what is most important-love, experiences, family, friends, and moments. I can’t imagine facing the challenges that you are, but I also can’t thank you enough for unknowingly being an inspiration to live your life for you and to live your life for love. Pat, I know that the love that surrounds you is insane, I know that your spirit, your personality, your amazingness, is going to live on for eternity in the memories, and love that exists in the people that you hold close. I pray for you and your loved ones to find peace in the good that you’ve created and I wish you enough love laughter and good vibes to keep your head high and your workouts intense in the days to come.